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Its half over. One of the worst chapters in my life is half over. You would think that talking about this before its actually complete would be weird, but considering the circumstances I just need to let it out.

On Friday, July 13th, 2007 I was faced with one of the most embarrassing, atrocious, awful things that has ever happened to me; and theres no better way to put it, I got a DUI. How
the Hell could this happen to me? I thought everything was going good at the time. I was on top of the world. But what I didnt really know is that I removed the One thing in my life that made me whole, made me who I am, gave me the ability to love, let me make my own decisions...

I realize now what Ive been missing...

God.

I am a fim believer in the whole everything happens for a reason thing and I know that what happened to me that night will forever change who I am and what I believe in. I know that this may sound silly but I am glad I got a DUI. Im happy(now that most of it is over) that I put myself in that situation because I am a better person because of it.

Before THE NIGHT, I thought I could get away with anything. I didnt have a care in the world.
I sold my soul to the entire party scene. I wanted that for some reason and I didnt care what anybody thought. I let Satan take control of my life. What I realize now is that none of that; none of the drinking and partying is worth it. Its not worth giving up on my ambitions. Because of that night, I no longer want that.

Now, Im not saying that having a drink or two while hanging out with friends is bad. Just as long as I dont abuse it I think Ill be okay. What I do need though, is to keep God with me. I need to spend more time with my creator.

Its half over. I had to take an entire semester off of school because of it, and here I am now 6 months later. After having to get a job to pay off a $4000 bill (thats still not all payed). After the community service, the DUI school, the VIP or Vehicle Impact panel; where I had to listen to people talk about their loved ones who died in DUI related wrecks, and working my butt off everyday at Office Depot. You might think that what I went through should be enough, but its not. When I go back to school I will still have to have a job to pay off the rest of the bill and I still have a thing in my car that I have to blow into to start it, oh and I have to pay $300 to get my drivers license back but its half over. In six more months I will have the entire thing expunged from my record and for this I am very grateful...most people dont get that opportunity.

So thats what I mean by half over... I still have six more months of working to get it payed off, but the worst is over. I can finally get back to my life. I can get back to learning and having fun with my friends. Although this past month has been pretty good because I got closer to some friends that I havent really hung out with in a while. Ill still get to see them though. I also got to spend a lot of time with my family, and thats what means the most to me, my family and my friends.